IMPACT

Just like the drop in the ocean doesn’t see how it’s making an impact, you too do not understand the impact you are making.

 

I was texting with my daughter the other day and sharing with her the positive experience I had at 2nd Saturday. For those of you not aware, I host an event called 2nd Saturday every month. It’s for people that are becoming aware of the synchronicities in life, being aware of their energy, and the understanding there is something more going on around us. I was guided by Spirit last December to start holding this monthly event and I basically went into it blindly, not knowing what I was supposed to be doing, but I was definitely to be hosting it. The attendance started out small, 1-3 people, and has built to a pretty steady 14-15 people (both men and women) in attendance. My goal is to simply hold space for people to come together and share their thoughts and experiences. I also am as authentic as I can be in leading the group.

In our texting conversation she stated I was doing so much for the people here. That got me to thinking about how, at times, I feel so inadequate and how I don’t feel like I’m doing enough.

You ever feel that way? Like you think somehow you can squeak out just a bit more of yourself to share with others?

I am learning, ever so slowly, that I am enough. I am enough just as I am. I don’t have to change, I don’t have to adjust, that by simply being Who I Am I make a difference. Along this line of thinking I am also reminded to love myself. Yeah, right!? No, really – loving myself – giving myself love.  Take a moment, right now, put your hand on your heart, and say to yourself – I love myself, I give myself love, my heart beats to the vibration of Universal love. I am worthy and I deserve love.

As the holiday’s start next week, remind yourself, you are making an impact in this world by simply being here at this moment in time. May you feel the vibration of love I am sending to you and may you allow your love to ripple outward into the world!

Beliefs and Energies

There is a saying, choose carefully the people that you surround yourself with. I realized today how important that is!I started out my day just like any other, woke up with a positive attitude and an idea of how my day was going to unfold.

I received a phone call from someone that I haven’t spoken with in quite some time and we talked for a half hour or so. The call itself and the subjects we discussed were like any other phone call. What was the ah-ha moment for me was when I got off the phone.

I found myself in an irritated mood. Nothing real major but something that I simply acknowledged and then thought I let go of. An hour or so passed and I found myself in a foul mood, I started down the path of lack of thinking. Lack of thinking is the vibration of worry. Worrying about not having enough money, not enough clients, how am I going to pay my bills in December, what am I going to do the end of the month, and the recordings just kept going through my mind. I was also in fear mode. Fearful of how am I going to maintain what I have, how am I going to get more clients, etc. It is a VERY slippery slope of negativity, lack of and fear.

In my thoughts, I shouted STOP. Then, I took an assessment, what had changed from the time I’d woken up to now? How did I remove myself from being in the moment and trusting to stepping out of the connection to Spirit? I recalled the phone conversation I had. I accepted this person’s energy and self-beliefs and they got attached to me. It can be that simple to accept another person’s beliefs and be influenced by them.

I brushed this energy off my entire being (called Dry Brushing Technique) and focused more on my centering and allowing myself to be in the energy vibration I now live in. You see, I choose to live in an abundance space, allowing all the goodness of the Universe to come to me, I accept it with open arms. This energy vibration brings me peace, acceptance and comfort. I am taken care of physically, emotionally and spiritually. It is where I FOCUS my energy that gets me where I want to be.

How often do you accept others beliefs and energies and then find yourself not being your authentic self? What thoughts do you allow to be in your life? Your attitude towards anything literally will set the tone for your day, month, year and most of all life. Choose wisely who you surround yourself with and most of all – choose your own joy, love, abundance and fearlessness!

Living with Intention

Heidi’s Happiness

Happiness isn’t a destination,
it’s a realization that things couldn’t possibly get any better than
having the freedom to perceive as you please and to think as you choose,
in a magical adoring Universe.

Living with Intention

I attended a Mindfulness and Meditation hosted by South Dakota Buddhist Vihara. Buddhist’s from Minneapolis come once a month to share meditation. During the service, we did a walking meditation.

For those of you not familiar with a walking meditation it is an opportunity to really get in touch with your body and awareness of yourself. The way the Buddhist taught it was to start by standing with both feet together, standing tall and relaxed. Slowly lift your right heel up, then the lift the bottom of the foot and slowly moving the foot forward. Set the foot down slowly. Then, lifting the left heel up, bottom of the foot and then slowly moving the left foot forward, slowly setting the foot down. Continue to do this walk in a slow deliberate method.

What I noticed during this exercise, with the other people that attended, was that most of us were walking towards the line we were to go to rather than being aware of the actual walking. People were focused on getting to the end rather than during the moments of walking meditation. I found myself also taking too big of steps to be able to do the walking meditation with intention.

This made me have an ah-ha moment.  How often in our lives we are living for the end result. Many people feel there are so many, many things they need to accomplish before they die, to keep themselves busy, filling their days with stuff. Many measure their productivity by the items they accomplish rather than by the awareness, intention and degree of presence. I know I’m guilty of doing this.

This quote so resonates with me, Stop measuring days by degree of productivity and start experiencing them by degree of presence.

At the end of your day, reassess of how present you were during the day. Remind yourself, there is no perfection in being present, it’s simply an awareness.

Being in this Body

Heidi’s Happiness

Happiness isn’t a destination,
it’s a realization that things couldn’t possibly get any better than
having the freedom to perceive as you please and to think as you choose,
in a magical adoring Universe.

Being in this Body

If you agree that we are souls having a human experience, then it is only logical to realize this human body holds your soul during your human life. To take it a step further, realizing this body is simply doing what it was designed to do, help you have all the experiences, good and bad there are available as a human.

I’ve been observing lately how often people hate either their entire body or a portion of it and yet expect their bodies to perform at 100% healthy. Think about that for a moment. What if, you were working for someone that treated you very poorly, every single day, and yet, the expectations were to give them 100%+ of your energy, time, thoughts, etc. How long would you stay at that job? Is it any wonder our bodies will react and not perform like we want it to?

What brought all this observation to a head was last Tuesday, I was cold, all day. I just couldn’t seem to get warm. I didn’t know what was going on as I’m not normally cold. The next day I was sneezing at least ten plus times in a short period of time. I thought, oh no, I don’t have time to get sick. I immediately started using essential oils on the bottom of my feet, drinking a special concoction of ginger, lemon, turmeric and cinnamon, and I ended up taking over the counter medicine. What I also did though, was I started listening to a guided meditation on Youtube that The Honest Guys have posted. I listened to this guided meditation in the morning and in the evening.

What I was amazed with, was by listening to this meditation I literally felt my body healing. I felt like I was getting in alignment with my body again. By Friday evening I was feeling good, no aches and very little other allergy/cold/flu symptoms. It is Sunday as I write this and the only thing I have a little bit left of is the sinus area is clearing out.

Observing how quickly my body released the sickness and realigned with health is pretty amazing. I also made sure that I was not stating, I hate being sick, I don’t have time to be sick, all the words that we usually state when feeling sick. I kept thinking to myself, I am healthy, my body is healthy, it is healing. I have the ability to be healthy.

While this is a simple example of how we can work with our bodies and not against them, what can you do to embrace this body that your soul is housed in? How can you love it into health? When your body starts to give you indications that it is becoming tired, that it can’t keep up, do you stop and listen to it or do you expect it to keep giving you 100% when it clearly can’t?

Take a moment today to check in with your body. Listen to the nudges, learn to love all the parts of your body. All your body wants is love and acknowledgement. If you can’t or won’t take time for yourself, who is going to?

Trust

Heidi’s Happiness

Happiness isn’t a destination,
it’s a realization that things couldn’t possibly get any better than
having the freedom to perceive as you please and to think as you choose,
in a magical adoring Universe.

TRUST

Merriam-Webster’s dictionary defines trust as 1a :assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something.

I find myself testing the trust I have in Spirit. Do you have challenges in trusting God? When you read things that say, let go, let God, what are your instinctive thoughts and reactions? Do you think, I’ll trust a little bit but all of it? Well, let’s not get carried away. Do you think, I need to keep control somehow!

I had a client today that is learning to trust more and more. She used to feel the need to try and control so much in her life. She would find herself in conflict though in trying to control so many things that were literally out of her control.

I remember being in my 20’s trying to control pretty much everything. The way I looked when I would go out in public; from my make-up, hair and clothing to the way that I would speak. I wanted to project that everything was ideal for me, that life was great. In my 30’s I kept trying to control everything and I found it to be so exhausting. I found myself having to let go of certain beliefs and ways that I thought things should be. I tried to keep my home as clean and tidy as I’d grown up in and I was overwhelmed all the time. I literally had to tell myself that I was still an okay Mom and person by not having everything in order.

This need to control brought me a lot of angst and discord. I found myself wound so tight most of the time that I would snap at people if they asked me a question the wrong way. Of course, I was the one that made the judgement of whether they asked the way I wanted them to. All of this controlling behavior was not in alignment with my authentic self.

It has taken me many years of self-reflection, of really seeing my belief system for what it was and that I had and have the ability to be whatever it is I choose to be. I have choices. I get to choose, each day, to let go and trust that this life that I’m living is exactly the way it is supposed to be. Those items that present themselves to me, I get to choose how I react. I do not need to control things anymore, I get to allow the flow of life to happen. I have found that when I allow the flow to happen life is so much better. I get to experience all the wonderful things that are happening and even those things that would have normally derailed me, they are merely a bump in the road and I move on.

It is this trust in a higher power that has resonated so strong in me my entire life. This higher power is deeper and richer in my life and I am filled with gratitude for learning to trust. I still test it though. I wonder at times if I will always be this way or if there will be a point in my life that I get all in, the 101% of trust. Oh, I have moments of the 101%, and those moments are becoming longer. I will continue to strive towards it though, because, I have learned, when I trust, the magic happens, my life unfolds in ways I never could have imagined. I learned recently when asking Spirit for something, add “or better”, so that our limited thinking as humans can be raised to a level that we truly get to experience things that weren’t even in our awareness.

Where are you at in your trusting? What is your awareness level of trusting that something is bigger at play here on earth than what we can see with our eyes? Where are you at in your life learning to trust?

Being At Peace

Heidi’s Happiness

Happiness isn’t a destination,
it’s a realization that things couldn’t possibly get any better than
having the freedom to perceive as you please and to think as you choose,
in a magical adoring Universe.

How blessed you are!

Today, as you are reading this, I want to remind you to breathe – yes, breathe. It is through our breath we can come back to a constant space of peace.

There are so many natural disasters happening right now in the world, from huge forest fires, an earth quake and numerous hurricanes along with our day to day life of simply trying to live.

From reading posts on Facebook, I see people writing, It’s scary, I’m frightened, I’m worried, I don’t understand.

In my meditations and understanding of the energies right now all that is happening is providing all of us an opportunity to come together. What I found interesting when watching a video during the hurricane in Houston that no one was questioning which bathroom each person used, no one was refusing to help another person because of the color of their skin or their religious beliefs. Do you understand now the bigger picture at play here?

What if, these natural disasters are an opportunity for each of us as human beings to SEE each other as in this all together? That ALL OF US are experiencing the Human Existence and that our time here is limited?

I see people banding together to help one another, whether it be through monetary donations, food and clothing or through their own time and effort. THIS is what our human experience is all about. Helping one another, not fighting and nit-picking over trivial issues.

Take a moment, right now, close your eyes, take in a deep breath through your nose, expanding out your lungs as far as possible, allow for a moment the peace of Spirit to enter your being, then release the breath through your mouth, exhaling all of the worry and concern. Do this a couple more times. Now, when you have yourself in that peaceful place…close your eyes again and imagine this peace you feel within being sent out to each and every individual that is in a state of worry today. Imagine joining this peaceful place on a larger scale. Imagine hundreds of people around you doing the same as what you are doing right now, coming to a place of peace and then sending that peace out.

TRUST the strength, the knowledge, the peace, the understanding and the Truth of all that is!

Gratitude

Heidi’s Happiness

Happiness isn’t a destination,
it’s a realization that things couldn’t possibly get any better than
having the freedom to perceive as you please and to think as you choose,
in a magical adoring Universe.

How blessed you are!

As I sit here Saturday evening, my body a bit tired and my mind doing an exhale, I find myself wanting to express gratitude like I’ve never done before.

I attended and volunteered at a retreat today (Saturday 8.26) that was hosted by a friend of mine, Sarah Jo Johnson and her company, Harmonic Tapestry. The retreat was called Women’s Restoration and was held at Newton Hills State Park.

For those of you not familiar with Newton Hills State Park, there is something about the energy there and the grounds that feel sacred. The location of the retreat was hidden away, in safe space in the park. Why the need for safe space you may ask?

Because women need safe space to allow themselves to explore self-love and self-care. As women, we are conditioned to believe we must continue to give and give and then give some more even though our vessel is empty. We are conditioned to believe if we don’t give it all then there is something wrong with us.

What comes to mind first in gratitude is the men that volunteered to assist Sarah Jo in making this a safe day for everyone. These men had all the supplies to set up a camp, first aid, transportation from the parking lot to the retreat area, they had walkie talkies to make sure that everyone was covered and that no one ever felt threatened. These men wanted us women to know we are valued, not for what we could do for them but that by simply being who we are, we are valued.

I found myself choked up numerous times throughout the day as I saw these men doing whatever it took to nurture us, as in preparing the fire, fixing the brats, talking back and forth on the walkie talkies about women walking alone on the road and ensuring they were safe and that no one and nothing would harm us. I realized I have not had this much in my life. I’ve always felt like I had to be the strong one. I was the one that had to be watching out for harm. The thought of having a man stepping up and simply doing this because it was a way for him to honor us was mind boggling. These men do not understand the depth of their kindness nor the gratitude extended to them. They showed me, in so many ways, there are good men, there are men that truly care, with no hidden agenda and that it is given unconditionally.

There was a trust hike and this entailed women blindfolded, walking along a trail, being guided by holding onto a rope. The trail was short, however, many women made the comment it felt a lot longer. I chose not to go on the trust hike. Why? Because I was a volunteer and I wanted to be there for the women at the end of the hike to walk them back to the gathering location while their blind folds were still on. I spoke to them while guiding them back and encouraging them to share the strength they found by doing the walk. I encouraged them to share their “glitter energy” when driving and walking in stores. To share that inner strength they found while on the trust hike. I also told them how proud I was of them for taking the risk and trusting themselves.

In the future, I plan to do my own trust hike. It is a part of my healing I get to go through. I realized today, I do not trust others will be there for me. I have learned to trust myself but it is others I pull back from. I look forward to greeting this fear, looking into its eyes, thanking it and then releasing it.

There was yoga that as many as 40 or so women part-took in. It was amazing to see that many women outside on yoga mats, all walks of life, all different shapes and sizes meeting themselves where they were to be in this journey of life. The yoga teacher (a male) was so awesome. He walked through the steps with such gentleness, encouraging each woman that she could do a pose, whether it was modified or not. By just being there and making the attempt it was huge in the step to getting in touch with one’s own stillness.

During lunch and later in the day there were four energy healers (I was one of them) sharing energy and healing to the women that chose to come and receive. Each woman received what was needed at that moment. Some cried, some felt the healing, all were touched in one way or another.

There was an art project that got us in touch with how we perceive ourselves and how others see us. It was a powerful moment for many. There was a self-defense class to give simple tools if we are ever faced with a situation where we need to defend ourselves.

The businesses in Sioux Falls supported this event in more ways than one. Sarah Jo put this event on as no-cost to attendees because she wanted to honor women and did not want cost to be a reason not to come. From the business donations that were received, it is very apparent that people, from all walks of life, all incomes, men and women want the female energy to be honored, nurtured and most of all healed.

At the end, I asked Sarah Jo if I could close out the event. I asked the women to raise their hands up to the sky, I asked them to open up their heart, understanding this was a safe place to do so, and to join this heart energy together with all the other attendees. I asked this energy to combine and strengthen to be sent up and out into the region, out into South Dakota, out into the United States and then out into the world. THIS female energy, the love, the light, the strength, the goddess that resides in all of us was sent out. This was important, because it’s time, this earth is moving into the Divine Feminine Energy and by sending it out, we made a ripple effect today. This ripple effect will be felt throughout and we will never know the impact we have made. But, trust me, the ripple has just begun.

As you read this, trust, you too have the ability to cause a ripple effect. Even the smallest movement can have profound effects. Send out positive energy wherever you are, right now, as you read this, set the intention “I send positive energy to those that need it today”. See, you just started a ripple effect!!


What If?

Heidi’s Happiness

Happiness isn’t a destination,
it’s a realization that things couldn’t possibly get any better than
having the freedom to perceive as you please and to think as you choose,
in a magical adoring Universe.

How blessed you are!

What if, you go to asleep tonight, just as you are – and tomorrow, you wake up as an African American? What if you wake up Native American?  What if you are now Asian? How does your day change? How does your mind change?

Now, let’s take a different turn, what if you went to sleep a female and woke up a male or vice versa? How does your day change? Do you carry yourself any different? Are your beliefs any different?

Anyone that knows me knows I want to go deeper in the conversation, so now, you wake up with a different belief system? How does your day change?

Let’s assume, this belief system is for your higher good, it is in alignment with Source/God/Divine/Universe, it is pure, more pure than you’ve ever been able to experience and feel. How does your day change? How does your outlook on life change?

What if, you are on a journey of discovery? Those things that have been such a part of your life, so ingrained that you would never ever in a million years believe they would no longer align with you, you find yourself questioning them. Its okay, it’s safe. You are not going to hell, or anywhere else for NOT believing in what you have always believed in, what you were taught.

One of the purposes of me being here on earth right now is to help people align with who THEY TRULY ARE. Not the outside forces that have said what box each of us are supposed to live in, what society requirements we are each supposed to fit in.  Now, you get to realign the box, in fact, you can even discard the box and not even have one! Well, okay, that may be a bit too much for some of us to handle. So, really, you get to redesign who you are in whatever way YOU want to. There is no wrong or right way. When you connect to your inner-self, your soul, your spirit you get to discover your Truth.

Believe it or not, when each of us connect with our own Truth, we actually align with the vibration of the Universe and therefore make this place, this time, a more peaceful and positive place to live.

What if? Take this thought and ponder it today and throughout the coming week.

No Longer Able To Be Quiet

Heidi’s Happiness

Maybe happiness is this: not feeling like you should be elsewhere,
doing something else, being someone else.
Isaac Asimov

For those of you who know me, know I am an empath, I am EXTREMELY sensitive to energies. I see energy in pictures, I feel it in the air, I sense it in the person next to me in the store, driving along I can feel it in the drivers passing me.

WHAT IS HAPPENING to this country – should have everyone feeling the feels. NO, not hatred – the Universe does not differentiate what kind of hatred energy there is out there, all hatred goes in the same bucket. Same with anger, anger is anger.

What is awesome though is LOVE goes in the same bucket as whatever kind of love, love for one another, love for the ones that are scared (on both sides of this), PEACE, HOPE, all of them are separate and yet connected.

I have been extremely emotional over the last couple of days. When I have been crying and even sobbing, it is for humanity. I cry tears of release as the burden of all this is huge.

We as a humanity MUST REALIZE that to sit in the energy of hate – you join all the rest of the haters REGARDLESS of what you are hating. When you are in FEAR – all the rest of the people that are sitting in the energy of fear join you. These energies DO NOT DISCRIMINATE – it does not matter the color of skin, your belief system, whether you are Christian, Muslim, Atheist, etc.

You get to CHECK into your beliefs. YOU get to choose how you react. I hope you can see deeper than where you are seeing right now. I DO NOT have the answers, I just know what I am experiencing, seeing, and feeling is deeper than I’ve ever had before.

I BELIEVE the energy of love is greater and stronger than the energy of hate. I BELIEVE the energy of hope and peace is greater than any fear out there. I believe that combining the energies of positivity will literally change and shift the way we interact with each other, how we see each other, and most of all, how we live with each other.

You get to choose – what are you choosing today?

Accepting

Heidi’s Happiness

Maybe happiness is this: not feeling like you should be elsewhere,
doing something else, being someone else.
Isaac Asimov

I was going through my journal from last year, not really looking for anything in particular, just perusing through the different writings that I had done.

I came across this from October 19, 2016 and wanted to share with you.

Feeling meh, some sadness, depression, aloneness, what other feelings am I having? Numb, anger.

Be okay with being in this “place”.

Apathetic, ashamed of feeling this way. Shouldn’t I feel more at peace, shouldn’t I feel happy? I’m living my life dream, I’m here!! Be content being here, but being content is an area I’m not familiar with-what is this?? I am so used to pushing forward, constantly feeling like I HAVE to be looking for the next step, the next thing. Sitting in this – this content energy – be okay with it – really – you are being taken care of – money is in abundance – all is well.

I find, that when I do go to bed and I wake up in the morning, I don’t wake up like “YES” I am looking forward to today. I thought I would be. I wake up and most of the time I want to sleep until 8:00 or 9:00 am – why is that a bad thing? Is someone telling me that is wrong?? No, it is the pre-determined thinking that I need to get up EARLY to be productive – do I really believe this? Really? I do not – it is a learned behavior – I accomplish all that I need to every day and that is all I need to expect out of myself. Critical – the critical vibration is one that I accepted as a young child – this is a vibration I want to let go of and replace with grace, love and acceptance.

Sit – sit in this space – say good-bye, mourn it, allow it to be and then when you are ready – release – like a balloon – into the sky – say good-bye- feel the lightness – the white light that is in its place – FEEL how much better you feel.

Yes, this is how I journal. I get so much insight and information by writing this way. I believe sometimes it’s Spirit interjecting where I need more insight.

While I was reading this I was reminded of that day. I am so thankful that I allowed myself to just be and accept where I was at. I am in a space now that I do wake up with full on gratitude, excited to see what the day brings, who I get to meet and who I get to share healing with.

How are you doing today? Could you be more accepting of where you are at? Understanding that you are moving into a new vibrational space of where you desire to be? Mourn the old way and be prepared for some beautiful gorgeous vibrational energy that is just waiting to be a part of your entire existence!!